Dienstag, 31. Mai 2011
Day 14
So its been two weeks. I am going crazy right now. All the hate in the house and back stabing and drama. But oh we. Met some nice people, not nice anough to stay here thow. Next week my cousain will be comeing up here. Never seen her before , she is a year younger then me hope we get along anyway.
Bought my a jornual today and some nice stickers to put in it. Wrote Jan another postcard. Had Pizza again and some nice cookie dough icecreame. YUMMY
For some reason i always post about my food, i just love food.
Thats pretty much it for today.
xoxo love and shooting stars
Bought my a jornual today and some nice stickers to put in it. Wrote Jan another postcard. Had Pizza again and some nice cookie dough icecreame. YUMMY
For some reason i always post about my food, i just love food.
Thats pretty much it for today.
xoxo love and shooting stars
Montag, 30. Mai 2011
Apoligize
Sorry i havent posted in such a long time. A lot been going on in the last days. So its day 13 now. I met a bunch of real nice people. Tomorrow i am gonne go to Princeton with this one girl. I found out Cigarettes are able to by the age of 18 and not 21 YES !!! :D
Got some german beer today at the supermarket. YUMMY YUMMY
I am really missing everybody but i am getting use to life here. We went to Jerseyshore this weekend, it was fun watching all those hoes and there "men". It was nice wheater and i got a little tan.
I also saw "Brides Maids" in the movies. It is the funniest movie ever, i swear i amost pissed in my pants. XD soo great the bride is trying on dresses and shits in a 25.ooo$ dress in the street. SO funny XD hahaha
getting tons of nice things said from the american boys but i still just want him xoxo i love him cant wait to see you babe !
well i start posting more this week that things have calmed down.
Oh i job as a model !!! that was way fun !
love and shooting stars
Got some german beer today at the supermarket. YUMMY YUMMY
I am really missing everybody but i am getting use to life here. We went to Jerseyshore this weekend, it was fun watching all those hoes and there "men". It was nice wheater and i got a little tan.
I also saw "Brides Maids" in the movies. It is the funniest movie ever, i swear i amost pissed in my pants. XD soo great the bride is trying on dresses and shits in a 25.ooo$ dress in the street. SO funny XD hahaha
getting tons of nice things said from the american boys but i still just want him xoxo i love him cant wait to see you babe !
well i start posting more this week that things have calmed down.
Oh i job as a model !!! that was way fun !
love and shooting stars
Dienstag, 24. Mai 2011
Unknow
NOone is who they asume to be. We are more then what we give price.A little bit of evil in us all.
Day 7
Its been a week. A week in this new pace. My new Home. I had the morning to myself. The house to myself. Me to myself. I took my bike to Princton. I too the train. I walkes. Walked around the new place. Meet new people. Got lost. I guess. But can you be lost without haveing a destenation ?
I watched after her. We took a nap. Nappesd together. She is so cute. We hab unch. We played. She played. I watched. We went to her house. My house. Our house.
I am sick. Sick of this pace. Sick of who i am. I am homesick. I need to change things. Before i go crazy.
night
I watched after her. We took a nap. Nappesd together. She is so cute. We hab unch. We played. She played. I watched. We went to her house. My house. Our house.
I am sick. Sick of this pace. Sick of who i am. I am homesick. I need to change things. Before i go crazy.
night
Sonntag, 22. Mai 2011
Day 5
I slep. I slep very long.Util 9 o´clock i thing. i guess.i dont know. I look nice. My clothes did. Its one of my new shirts. A pair of tights. riped tights. i like them riped.
Ate breakfast. Pancakes with bananes.
Got some food. Yummy food. I like food. I like yummy food. I like breakfast. Made Spagehtti for lunch and dinner. Had it twice. Cause i like it. Even thow its not breakfast food. Went to church. Boring. To now about god. His a little wiered. Hideing up there. His hime. Maybe someday my home. I dont know. I dont want to know. Not know. Not yet.
I camed with him. I love him. He loves me. Thats what he says. I wanne be with him. Forever. I just have it in my bones. Or my heart. I dont now. I have him everywhere. In me i feel him. I love him.
Signed up for some classes. Acting classes. Have to get a Photo done. Just of my face. But it can be more on it. They want me to do a bunch of stuff first thow. Wiered stuff. Stuff i wouldnt do. Bleech my teeth, cut my hair and plug my eyebrows.
I think its stupid. then its not me. Not me on the Photo. Just who that want me to be.
Sleep
Ate breakfast. Pancakes with bananes.
Got some food. Yummy food. I like food. I like yummy food. I like breakfast. Made Spagehtti for lunch and dinner. Had it twice. Cause i like it. Even thow its not breakfast food. Went to church. Boring. To now about god. His a little wiered. Hideing up there. His hime. Maybe someday my home. I dont know. I dont want to know. Not know. Not yet.
I camed with him. I love him. He loves me. Thats what he says. I wanne be with him. Forever. I just have it in my bones. Or my heart. I dont now. I have him everywhere. In me i feel him. I love him.
Signed up for some classes. Acting classes. Have to get a Photo done. Just of my face. But it can be more on it. They want me to do a bunch of stuff first thow. Wiered stuff. Stuff i wouldnt do. Bleech my teeth, cut my hair and plug my eyebrows.
I think its stupid. then its not me. Not me on the Photo. Just who that want me to be.
Sleep
Samstag, 21. Mai 2011
Day 4
8 o´clock. Sleeping in.
But no she is crying. She is so tiny. I want one just like her too. Not now but someday. Get up get dressed, see what the day brings.
New ID. Jersey State. A New Jersey ID for me. My ID. Buy some clothes. Nice clothes, for work.
10 o´clock. The Gym.
Run, run, run. 20 minutens later. Watching her. She is so cute in the water. swiming.,Trying to swim. Laughing.
Time for Luch. Tacos. 4 of them. Yummy. Smoke.
Then they took me to a little town. It starts to rain. Its fun, in the rain. I teach him german. We laugh. Fucking awsome little stores with all kinds of stuff. Cute stuff. Stiff you could make yourself. Things that inspire. Well inspire me, to what i want and where i wanne be.
Dinne. GROSS !!!!
Back home. There home. My new home. Rideing my bie. Her bike. A cute pink bike.
Sleep.
But no she is crying. She is so tiny. I want one just like her too. Not now but someday. Get up get dressed, see what the day brings.
New ID. Jersey State. A New Jersey ID for me. My ID. Buy some clothes. Nice clothes, for work.
10 o´clock. The Gym.
Run, run, run. 20 minutens later. Watching her. She is so cute in the water. swiming.,Trying to swim. Laughing.
Time for Luch. Tacos. 4 of them. Yummy. Smoke.
Then they took me to a little town. It starts to rain. Its fun, in the rain. I teach him german. We laugh. Fucking awsome little stores with all kinds of stuff. Cute stuff. Stiff you could make yourself. Things that inspire. Well inspire me, to what i want and where i wanne be.
Dinne. GROSS !!!!
Back home. There home. My new home. Rideing my bie. Her bike. A cute pink bike.
Sleep.
Day 3
Wake up. Work. Smoke. Work. Get off work. Sleep.
Then life starts. I guess. Wel what you can life. Not knowing anybody.
Went to the movies. Drank a drink. A slushy. Brainfreeze. I like that. Pirates of the Carabien. Good movies. Nice story. Open End.
Back home. Write this shit and go to sleep.
Then life starts. I guess. Wel what you can life. Not knowing anybody.
Went to the movies. Drank a drink. A slushy. Brainfreeze. I like that. Pirates of the Carabien. Good movies. Nice story. Open End.
Back home. Write this shit and go to sleep.
Donnerstag, 19. Mai 2011
5 Things i love
My Nightlights, that keep the Boogieman away
Yummy little Cakecups for the little hunger between the house and work
Water Baloons, that just well look at them. They make ya happy.
Fairydust, my very own collection of it. Just in case ;)
That when it rains my Unbrella keeps my dry. Unless i wanne get wet.
Big Tits XD
Day 2
Awake. But still asleep. I dreamed. It was a Monster. I knew him though. I have felt him before. Felt hom watching me. Watching me sleep.
I got out of bed, went down the stairs. Peed. Went outside. Outside i saw a rabbit and a cat. The rabbit ran from the cat. I somke. Smoked a cigarette. Walked bac inside, upstaires. Back in the bed. There bed, my bed, the new bed.
7 o´clock. Time to get up. Time to work.
4:30. Works over.
After cleaning. After organizing. I am done. Done with work. My body ist done. Done.
Got home. There home. 2 people ceaning the house. A girl. A boy. He looks. Looks at me and says: Hi. I dont anwser. Got things on my mind.Other things then saying hi.
Changed my clothes. Made a Sandwich. Turkey, Ranchdressing sandwich. Yummy.
12 hours later. 7 o´clock. Watching Tv. Its family guy. Waiting to go. Go and get some food at the supermarket. waiting for the night to come. Waiting to smoke. To gt life started. To find life. Waiting to get back home. Bac to him.
I got out of bed, went down the stairs. Peed. Went outside. Outside i saw a rabbit and a cat. The rabbit ran from the cat. I somke. Smoked a cigarette. Walked bac inside, upstaires. Back in the bed. There bed, my bed, the new bed.
7 o´clock. Time to get up. Time to work.
4:30. Works over.
After cleaning. After organizing. I am done. Done with work. My body ist done. Done.
Got home. There home. 2 people ceaning the house. A girl. A boy. He looks. Looks at me and says: Hi. I dont anwser. Got things on my mind.Other things then saying hi.
Changed my clothes. Made a Sandwich. Turkey, Ranchdressing sandwich. Yummy.
12 hours later. 7 o´clock. Watching Tv. Its family guy. Waiting to go. Go and get some food at the supermarket. waiting for the night to come. Waiting to smoke. To gt life started. To find life. Waiting to get back home. Bac to him.
Mittwoch, 18. Mai 2011
Day 1
I am. I am German. I am an a lived here before. But i had left. No i am back home i guess. I pucked in the plane. Fucking Sandwich. Some wiered green shit on it. Again i dont know. Dont know what it was, i guess it made me vomet.
I am laying in bed now. My bed. My new bed, american bed. My bed ?
3 blankets, 4 pillows, a stuffeda animal and me. Just me. But who am i ? I know who the stuffed animal is. His name is Fred.
Because a boy gave it to me. A boy named Fred. He is not here.Not in my bed, not in America.
We had pizza. Pepperoni pizza.
She didnt she had ceriel. She is just a couple months old. Its their baby. their house. there room. their bed, which i am sleeping in. dose that make me theires too ?
i need a cigarette. i need the taste, i like the taste.
not allowed to smoke in their house. but outside. i am too lazy to get up now.
i will sleep. like on the plane. in their bed, now. in my new bed.my american bed.
I am laying in bed now. My bed. My new bed, american bed. My bed ?
3 blankets, 4 pillows, a stuffeda animal and me. Just me. But who am i ? I know who the stuffed animal is. His name is Fred.
Because a boy gave it to me. A boy named Fred. He is not here.Not in my bed, not in America.
We had pizza. Pepperoni pizza.
She didnt she had ceriel. She is just a couple months old. Its their baby. their house. there room. their bed, which i am sleeping in. dose that make me theires too ?
i need a cigarette. i need the taste, i like the taste.
not allowed to smoke in their house. but outside. i am too lazy to get up now.
i will sleep. like on the plane. in their bed, now. in my new bed.my american bed.
Mittwoch, 11. Mai 2011
Dienstag, 3. Mai 2011
sunshin in my heart
just open the door let it in, forget everything that has happend and never never give up
Montag, 2. Mai 2011
More then this...
I am leaveing for now, cause there is more to life then this. I know what i am leaveing behind and i will come bac to get him. Someday, not now. I need strength and that is what i will find on my journey.
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